Thanks Gardener, TrentC, Sandi2 and Spybunny (and others). Like so many others here, your posts really help me.
My daughter talked to me tonight. She asked if I had given up hope, which was strange because we told the kids that we were getting divorced together and, I don't believe either of us has talked to the kids in a way to suggest otehrwise...but they are a lot smarter then we give them credit for.
I asked her what she meant and she explained that she thought I was still being hopeful that we would stay married.
I asked her why she thought that and she said that I always seem to be trying to make sure the house is clean before we trade for the week and if I didn't care about her, why would I care about the house being clean?
I told her that just because we were getting a divorce didn't mean we didn't care for each other.
She just looked at me and asked me not to lose hope because you should never ever ever ever give up.
She's 11.
Isn't it weird, how out of no where, there is a burst of energy and support that lifts you up?
Same thing here today. I have posted several times, just venting as I need to, but no replies...which is fine, they come when I need them....today I really needed them. I melted down this afternoon, had to take some time away from the kids to collect myself, call some relatives and vent. I cried hard, by myself. I was angry, exhausted, confused and utterly out of gas. I came back and saw several posts on my thread, then my D tells me this tonight.
Now, I guess, it is up to me to keep that going for another 48 hours until I get through the first C session with my W.
