Thanks Deep, that is good clarification for me, and fits who I am. I am trying to figure out how to do some of this with still staying true to who I am... and maybe even discovering parts of the "true me" that have been neglected in meeting everyone else's needs.
You are right ... I AM one fabulous attractive woman! (why is it so hard for me to put that in black and white... I feel guilty or something... weird!) Maybe it is finally time I OWN that and LIVE it! I was very inspired by Kara's thread "Doing Me". That is what I need to do... find ME and DO it!
Just knowing that within myself... knowing that if H is such a freaking idiot that he walks out the door and pursues a 23 yr old alcoholic/addict and ruins his life... there will be good, attractive men with integrity who would honor commitment out there who would see what I have to offer and appreciate it! I know that is true. I just need to KNOW it, I don't have to violate my values with acting on it.
Thanks Deep! you have given me a boost... :-)
Cutter... I hear you. I do struggle with what H's complaints were when the bomb was dropped about what I had been doing wrong in the R. So, for the past few months I have tried to change those things, 180s. But... to what effect? None so far. It is true that it will likely get his attention much more if I don't meet them. Maybe I just need to be so busy being fabulous that I don't have time to meet them... lol (ok I'm not there yet, but that is my goal...)
