Not Me...Ever part 2

[Deep]

Hi Serenity, this reminds me of a homily I heard over the All souls/ All Saints weekend ...

As my pastor put it, God gave us all the potential to be "saints". Good men and women make choices in life, these choices form habits, become ingrained as a way of life, and eventually become life itself. Surrender of self in this sense is a very difficult and personal issue obviously, and each person will need to find the right mix as we also juggle with our own individuality and sense of purpose.

We never forget there is a deeper and higher meaning, yet also know that the meaning we have in our self is special and aspire to fulfill the latter in accordance with the former.

Your H and others are a test of your beliefs. Why would you want to test yourself too? I think you'll make mostly the right choices along the way, and if and when you don't, it doesn't mean it's the end of the path?