Do you think so Deep? That was one of the things that hurt the worst. The thing is I have lost a lot of weight and get tons of attention from men. That feels good, and it has happened even when H is around and he doesn't seem to notice or care. He used to compliment me and tell me how proud he was of how I looked. I know that I could easily encourage attention from men and get it... but I don't feel comfortable with that. It seems like for most men that would get their attention, but with H it seems like he truly doesn't care anymore. I do wonder though if it really happened if that would be different for him.
Anyway, you are right that being a good mom is one of the ways I am GALing right now. H is missing out on some fun, quality time with the kids. I did get a strong reaction from him once recently when I talked to him about how much visitation he might like if he becomes a divorced dad. He got very upset and didn't want to talk about it anymore. H comes from a divorced family himself and has often talked about how he will never forget the pain of the day his dad drove away with his suitcases. Yet, here is considering doing the same thing! boggles my brain!
I so appreciate male perspectives telling me what most men find attractive... I know I need to work on confidence, assertiveness and mystery... I am way too predictable and available. Being confident at the same time you are being rejected by the man you love is the task of a lifetime! but it is what I need to do.
