I have not reconciled with my H. Nor has he filed for the D he wants or a legal S.
Have I gotten an apology? No. Do I expect him to? At some point, I think he may apologize for the way this happened and while I know he's sorry for the pain he's caused, his words to address that (not at my questioning) are that is isn't the man that can be here for me. He doesn't see us moving forward as a couple.
I will tell you though that at a couple of points while H and I were talking, I did have the opportunity to say how I felt about some things. Did it make a difference? For me personally, yes, it did.
I understand your need to feel heard. When these things were said, I wasn't trying to be mean and vindictive (and from the tone of your posts, I don't hear that in you either) and I wasn't trying to get H to reconcile. It was good for me to say some of what I needed to say. It was one of those "no expectation" moments and I am good with how it went.
