Interesting question, Serenity and I understand how you feel. I am accountable to God at the end of the day.Not to my friends or even my H. I follow His guidance as it comes to me. Sad to say, sometimes I DON'T feel like doing what I am being led to do but I always come around in the end. You sometimes have to go through fire and face tribulations but troubles don't last always. Doors that are shut now can be opened. It is all dependent on His time and His way.
I was ill in the hospital once and every day I kept praying "God, when will the doctor discharge me? When will this problem go away?" Day after day for two weeks it was the same. Little real improvement in my condition. One morning I awoke and bam! Problem gone. The doctor wasn't sure why it happened that way. I went through test after test. All negative and some very, very painful. (H was always there,God bless him, and that is part of the reason I am still hanging in here).
My rambling is to say that we go through tests and trials. We never see the end or know how close we are to it. But God is always working. Deliverance will come. It may not be the way we expect or when we want. But it will come. Rest easy. Reality is NOT finality. However it works out, Serenity is blessed.
