You'll feel all those emotions and more. You are going to go through so many ups and downs you won't even know how your "really" feel.
It's all part of the process. It really does come down to the fact that only you can make yourself feel a certain way. I've had to imagine like my W is a crazy relative who comes to visit every now and then.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.