Play House

[SueS]

Hi Yoyo-

You sound wonderful! I'm sorry that I haven't been in touch. I know I said I'd try to call. I've been thinking about you.

I'll likely start a new thread here soon and get back in touch with everyone. Back in August I was as calm and confident as could be when I told my H that I was done, that I'd take the first step and file. He begged, he pleaded, he promised..... Here we are at the first of November. No promises kept, contact with OW is over, but it didn't end right away as he said it would. Contact with a previous OW started. He hid things and didn't give me access to what he promised. He told me now that I can see his email if I want. He has a BlackBerry now, so it's very easy to delete it all. And I also suspect he has another email account.

I've told him a few times in the past month and increasingly over the past few days that I'm done. I have nothing left in me for him. Sad for D5, but nothing left for him. He poured on the "Nice". I told him that I see how it works.....that he only does it when he feels he has to and when he needs to. He had things to say to me and in the end he told me that if I'd treated him better in the first place that none of this would have ever happened. I knew it would be all my fault. I'd told him that I don't see it as a matter of if things fall apart again, but of when they fall apart. In other words, when he cheats again. He said that if I'm so worried about it the maybe I should get him a job with no women and drive him to/from work. It was unbelievable. He was nasty to me this morning and then called several times today to just ask me quick questions.

I saw an attorney today. I'm not sure when I'll file, but I need to get out soon. As I said, I have nothing left for him.

Sorry for taking over your thread. Just wanted to say hi and update. I'll start my own soon!

Take care & hello to all my friends who have supported me over the past few years. I'm sorry that I took so much time off.....but I think I'm going to need you again!

SueS