You're still waiting for the other shoe to fall. I hear it in your posts. It's not a criticism, just an observation. I'll tell you what I've learned about that though. When I'm feeling that way, I act like it and in doing so, I telegraph it to H. I would have told you for the longest, that regardless of how I felt, I had a PMA etc. I was wrong.
How can I tell the difference? Now, when I get that anxious feeling I have better coping skills and b/c H doesn't live here I can usually have things resolved in my own head by the time I see him (once a week, every week). It has made a difference.
Don't dread the holidays. Then number of them we have with our kids is more limited than I'd like. So, I make plans with D's and in your case you can sak your H if he's interested in doing whatever it is. If he is, great, if not, go do it anyway. Enjoy your girls and make all the memories you can.
