Is this the end of my marriage?

[P17]

I'm in that state of mind now and I still don't think there's an OM. There are friends who she is seeing, but no one serious. She's rapidly running out of money and telling the girls there'll have to be cutbacks.

But she remains as determined as ever, which is helping me build my own.

My sitch is different in that my W's parents are, or at least were, feeding her money. They purchased the house she is living in for example. Financially there is no incentive for her to do anything. Last I heard the OM was 'looking' for a job so my W was keeping him. That was a few weeks ago so things could be different now. I have kept my boundary of not snooping, looking or listening to any information about them.

It's sad that these people, or at least my W in this case, won't fight for us if that's what she decides she wants. She'd rather roll into a corner and ignore the world.

If I do have to go to LRT then I think it will be the best thing for me at least as I will finally be able to get on with my life. This is a very small town (around 10k) and we have a saying here that 'you can't fart here but they know about it in the next town before you can even smell it' (apologies if it puts anybody off their dinner) so anything I do will get back to her.

Moving on is the best thing I think I have done so far. It's really given me the confidence that I can get through this without my W.