My stbxh reisgned today. His resignation wasnt accepted at this point. But I think even if he stays, he will be miserable. His plans are ammbitious, not anything crazy, but working on something he hasnt done before that would involve a lot of personal work, travelling and going out alot. Something of his own. And sadly, her "expertise" (BJs) match perfectly his new plans... Which makes me feel like I am the worng person to be with at this phase. I know, pathetic. Just a little window in my thoughts for you guys.
I asked him if he would come to the funeral with me. It's 3,5 hours away, (Kalamata!!). He said "well, let me see how work goes and yes, maybe I could". WRONG answer!
Later I told him I am staying home because my mom and brother are going and I need to baby/dadsit. I said he could come over if he finishes early. He said "we talked about going out with the guys", I said "fine, talk to you tomorrow then". I got a message saying "I will come over later". OK...
Right now, I again feel I have to shut up to make room in his head for business. I recognise it is a big step for him. Bigger than any he ever took before. Timing sucks.
Something is missing. And it's not her. I think his love is gone. As a result, my love is not coming back. Maybe I am wrong. We'll see.
Jack, it's good to know things can get better than before. And it's the only way things can work out. I would never want the same M I had. That's not what my goal was from the beginning. K
