The actual lease papers won't be ready for me to sign until the end of the week. We have everything agreed to and I'm approved- it just needs to be written in final form and I hand them a check.
I had an IC session today and she thinks I should tell H what I'm doing before I actually sign (preferably tonight), so that it's more of a mutual decision, it gives him one last chance to come to his senses (which is doubtful but he'll get his chance) and it's not hanging over my head for the next three weeks. I guess I'm gonna say something like this:
H, I've done a lot of thinking about our discussion last Sunday, and it's probably a good idea for us to try a separation unless you have any other ideas. I decided to go ahead and get the apartment- I can sign the lease this weekend and move out right after Thanksgiving. I don't plan on filing anything immediately- I would like to see how this goes first. I'll put together some numbers and separation proposals together re: kids, Christmas, money, furniture- so we can discuss how we want to work this.
Blech... still feeling sick... maybe I'll feel a little better after we talk. Dread can really beat me down.
