PLEASE HELP! - About to completely LOSE IT!!!

[Ready2Change]

First, I commend you on a great job! Keep it up.

...I was missing H. Missing our old life together....

It is OK to morn the loss of the old relationship. Just do this while H is not around. It is important to feel the feelings. Both tears and laughing help a lot.

Feel like I am so depleted and devoid of physical affection and touch right now and am longing for it desperately.

Here are ways I handle(d) this: Full body massages are a great way to get touch needs met and are also relaxing. Pedicures also feel great. Having the hair stylist wash my hair feels nice. My kids are good at snuggling. Any friends have kids that would sit on your lap and watch a movie?

I move and say "Why am I funny?" H - "Because you are just funny. A "friend" huh?" AFG - acting aloof, "What do you mean?, Oh because I said "a friend"?" H - smiling, laughing "Yeah, like it's a big deal to say who it was." AFG - "I didn't mean for it to be a big deal. It's some friends of mine that you don't know." H - now sitting at bar in kitchen while I am starting to slice pizza, pauses for a minute "So is it a girl friend or a guy friend?" AFG - looks at H with smirky smile

I would have ended this discussion at this point without any more words. Let his mind wander....Just food for thought if similar discussions happen in future.