Not wanting to be on this boat........

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had our 2nd joint MC session last night.....
W says things in the MC session that are so completely out of left field both good and bad. Her bad things are all over the board about why she feels the way that she does, her good things seem to be a front so that the counselor feels that she is trying---might be a bad thing but I called her on a couple of things and she totally blew them off--during the session she claims that she is "all in and trying to work back to a loving marital relationship" However, at home she has actually said the complete opposite and that the best I could hope for from her is a co-habitation with no love for the next 20 years until our son is an adult??!!!
So I guess more confusion/hurt from me in that what do you believe what do you not believe? Also, what is my next step? I really cannot see going thru the next month much less months or even years like this. I feel truly de-valued as a person and feel no love from her at all. At this point she is meeting none of my needs, actually b/c of her actions it is creating more needs on my part. That is not a healthy way to live and that being said somedays I wonder if it would not be better to just move on and try to start over without her (than I see my son and I cannot do it not just yet at least) AGHH!!! I hate this limboland, roller coaster whatever you want to call it.