Newly Separated and Heartbroken

[ALJ]

I have been without my beloved laptop for over a month and I am so glad to have it back. It needed major repairs. The hard drive, motherboard, and battery were all replaced. Thank God for warranties. Unfortunately, I lost all saved information that I had in files but none of it was too important anyways. Oh well.

My H just left yesterday for home after visiting for 5 days. His attitude was much better than when he visited the last time. He did not act cold or distant toward me. We laughed and joked with each other. He seemed to want to engage in conversation more with me. No R talk though. He talked about some new ideas for his business and about how it is living down south. We did not go anywhere fun together. He mostly spent time with the girls and he went to visit his family that he had not seen in a while.

H is still acting like a stranger when it comes to not dressing or undressing in front of me. Every since he moved out, he has been ringing the door bell and not using his key. I am wondering if I should just ask him to give to the key back me. Also, he still sleeps on the floor in my room at the foot of my bed. I don't know why he just doesn't sleep on the couch. My guess is that he does not want the kids questioning him about sleeping on the couch.

I did have one setback regarding him sleeping in my room. I made the mistake of asking him to give my shoulders a massage and he agreed but he told me that I would have to come on the floor where he was in order to get it. He avoids my bed like the plague. I agreed and my hormones got the best of me.(we have not been intimate since June) We had sex but before we did, he made it clear that he was not forcing me and it was up to me if I wanted to or not. Like he did not care one way or the other. He just kept saying "do what you want" when I asked him if I should just get back in my bed and leave him alone. I guess he was letting me know that it is what it is and what it is, is just sex and he has no emotional connection to me. Well, I felt hurt afterward. I felt like I wanted to cry. I felt kind of used. But how can I if he did not initiate the act and I pursued him first. Then I became angry with myself for having sex with him and said that I will not pursue him like that again.

To add fuel to the fire, I get the mail later that day after H had left and one of his credit card bills was in the pile. This should not be because H had his mail forwarded to his new address. I opened it up and saw various charges but the one that caught my eye was one for The Olive Garden Restaurant. Immediately my mind started to wander. The charge was for $44. Sounds like an amount that two people would spend on a date. I got the impression that H is looking to date someone after snooping on his facebook page a month ago.(I have stopped looking at his facebook page and myspace page. It was not helping me)
I became even angrier after seeing that charge because 1. I think he went on a date (which may not be true) and 2. He is has no money right now to even pay his bills but he is willing to spend money to eat at The Olive Garden Restaurant for whatever reason. Should I confront him about the charge on the bill or just mail the statement to him and not say a word about it?

H seems comfortable with just visiting the kids every 5 to 6 weeks.(I am pretty sure he misses them) He is living the bachelor life and I am the single parent. Divorce has never come up.(which I dont want anyways) We have been separated for 6 months now. We live 13 hours away from each other so it seems hard to set up boundaries as he doesnt live close enough to cross them. My patience is getting the best of me. Is there any hope for us? Should I just resign myself to the fact that H is really done with the marriage.

Meanwhile, I have been in school for 2 months now and it has been fun. The coding course that I started yesterday is intense but I look forward to learning all I can to pass my certification test. The girls and I cant wait for the holidays so we can decorate the house and create memories that I hope they will remember.
Any thoughts or comments are welcome.