Nc- I wish what you were saying wasn't true but it is. Thanks for the prayers I need them.
Trent... I hear you, but easier said than done.
Journaling....
Last night was very emotionally for me. Long story short, My sister and brother constantly are ditching my kids and always have an excuse for not showing up to things, or my sister calls my mother and tells her she's not coming instead of calling me directly... yes 2years old and counting.
So I finally have had it. S6 bday is next wk. H will be gone on a business trip, so I wanted to do it this wk with the family, but he has something going on the day I chose so I wanted to change it to the wkend. Of course the only day available for everyone is wed, which I can't do... and although nothing in particular happend yesterday, i just snapped.
I called my mother to tell her I cancelled for Wed and whomever wants to show maybe on Sunday can, and whomever can't whatever. And that im tired of my kids not being a priority with any of my family members.. my brother has no kids just a wife and can never find the time to stop and see them, he lives 30 minutes away and passes through my town every time he works his shift. My sister is just completely self centered and has better things to do.
I just told her to stop making excuses for them and that if they want to deem me the bad guy so be it. Im tired of holding people accountable for their actions and not taking ownership, then being called a b!tch because of it. You want to treat me like crap, go ahead, I have incredibly broad shoulders, but don't mess with my children's lives, you want to partake in there life then good, if not its your loss, but don't continue to play the "im a good aunt/uncle" only on the holidays, it doesn't work that way.
~~~ ok guys, had to get that story out... believe it or not, H was supportive, BUT, and this is a big BUTT (LOL).... its only because he hates my family and likes when this crap happens. So really its not genuine.
I would love to start over somewhere, get out of NY, and the only people that would be missed are my friends and I would miss my parents, but I hardly see them either.
Saffie, got a house by you for sale???? Seriously, if it wasn't for our business ties I would really like to get out of the area, its so expensive to live here.
Going to try and do some non work today, kids are home so that won't be hard.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
