Thats sounds like progress...he is showing some emotions. Unfortunately my H has really not done any work on himself and if he doesn't then I'm afraid we don't have a chance. It's funny though, the more I see this distant, emotionless, stranger (my H) the more I think I deserve to be in a mutually loving, caring, committed R. So, sometimes I think: was this a blessing in disguise? Did H leave because I never would? Although every day is such a struggle. Last night our 3 kids (2,5 & 8) went to his apt. which they haven't been in awhile because he has wanted to watch them at my house (which doen't work out because then I need to leave my own house for 4 hrs) and I kept thinking, what do they think, how do they feel? I don't want them growing up being schlept back and forth from a house they love (we live on farm, animals, pool, tennis, etc..) to a 2BR purgatory apt. Also, my whole family, MC, friends don't even know why he would leave his beautiful wife, 3 kids, farm, ect... H has even said himself that he is just an ***hole and he just wants more and more. So sorry then, because I'd be happy living in a shack but with someone I love and they love me. I am honestly getting closer to calling mediator and starting the whole D process. From my eyes, H is stuck too and he's not going to keep me in the mud with him. ___________ Me 36 WAH 33 S 8 D 5 D 2 T - 11 M - 9.5 Seperated - 7/19/09 H still "confused"
