(((Rabbit)))) thank you so much! I know it is a process... just when I think I've made some progress, I feel like it goes backwards. It is almost like H has some kind of radar that tells him "oh no, she is getting too confident, she is doing too well... you better really *%#^ something up now so you can maintain the upper hand!" aargh!
But, today is a new day. Have been focusing on some positive thoughts and trying to start the day with some prayer. Deep breaths, positive self talk. Also - managed to find myself an IC too... have played phone tag a few times but she said she would try to call me today. I think that will help me tremendously and she comes highly recommended.
When I hear Puppy and others on this forum talk about appoaching this like a game...that is so foreign to me. I guess you have to be pretty detached to do that. That would truly be a 180 for me! I work in a human service field and have always helped at church etc. I guess I have always approached my marriage in much the same way: give, give, give.
I am finding it so hard to develop a new mindset. I'm not sure how to get there.
Anyway... here I go into a new day... lack of sleep and all.... I can do this! :-)
