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[awest1217]

The thing is...He isn't trying. H is the master manipulator and although he says he is trying, he is still pursuing OW and telling her he loves her. Yeah I understand it is at least good that he is reading the books, but he thinks he is playing me for a fool and on top of that to treat our S that way. He is the worst person ever! I would rather he divorce me than play this game. Honestly I would because I have asked him to let me go many times if he wants to pursue OW. He needs to choose and it is driving me nuts that he continually has his cake and eat it too. Again yesterday he said how he has no feelings for me at all, although he wants us to work, but he tells OW he loves her all the time.

Don't envy my sitch, at least if your W is starting to be with OM, she is leaving you before it gets to close. Mine has had OW most of our relationship and I have no hope in him ever stopping and especially ever getting rid of this one. Even if he says he has, he will probably do stuff behind my back. I have no trust or faith in him at all.

Do I still want my marriage to work...yes...but I don't think H realizes how much he has ruined me and how much harder it is going to be to come home this time than last, especially after yesterday.