I have to say that it isn't clear to me that he has a very realistic picture of what a balanced relationship between two adults looks like. I mean, could you have handled the Smoothie thing differently? Sure. But you knew how he would react, and he didn't disappoint. That's not how things should be, really, is it?
That's the mess we've been in for so long, VH. You got it. How can I fess up to a tyrant? But that doesn't excuse me not telling him. I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't but I should have told him instead of him finding crusted smoothie on his stereo. But what's a bigger price to pay when broken - a new stereo, or a person's heart? Thank you for reminding me that he doesn't understand a balanced relationship. No, we have an angry uptight man, and a woman who is constantly feeling like a screw up. Well I'm trying very hard to build my self esteem.
But then, of course we're all here because things aren't as they should be. But would he have been as uptight, angry, and cold about this situation before we separated? Most likely. I'm just so ashamed and mad at myself .It's like a curse. He walks in the door, I break or spill something. and just when things were starting to go better.
