It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

Well. Update. Gas/power is on. I have no control over money issues in that situation. It's all on her. She chose that, and still insists that. Rent is still an issue.

If I can help I will. End of story. I don't want to paint her as crazy, either (maybe a little bit, lately). She kept everything together financially throughout our M. She's been a hero. I would love to save the day. Not to save the M, but because that's what I have to do--M or no M.

She can pawn my TV and computer. She probably won't just because they're mine. For her, the biggest problem in the R was me being a financial drain rather than the capable man I should have been. That's who I am to her right now, so she doesn't want or expect me to help. I don't blame her. I would love to swoop in and help and save the day. I can't do that in the next five days.

She knows that and I know that and my family knows that. There are resources she can hopefully take advantage of for now and we spoke about that. I'll take the girls if she'll let me but she didn't like that idea much.

The biggest problem for me is that she expects no help from me, ever. If I could do anything, that would be a big help toward whatever little hope I have of saving the M. But that's not something I expect or even want at this point.

We'll figure it out. My passion is movies, so I have DVDs I'll sell. That should be a couple hundred. Even if she can't cover the rest, it will help out.