If you want to 'go on forever' telling us how you feel, go ahead! You have read pages and pages of my feelings!
I agree, there is always some compromise in a marriage. Call it settling, or not, either way, there is some give and take, some sacrifice. But if it is so much that you stop being Maria, then you are right, that is too much.
You are doing so well, really, with this situation. I am proud of my big sis.