Am I at this stage?

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So, H just left. AAAAHHHH!!!! He did not mention the MC. I asked him how his day was and he bypassed it completely...He came into the house completely grumpy...he even admitted to the grumpiness, but said he had no idea why. He then went on to tell me about a buddy of his who is going through a split and told me how nasty its getting and he "hopes we don't ever get like that." So there is his first negative comment in a few weeks. It really got me down. I got annoyed and mad, so I stayed in the kitchen while he hung out in the livingroom with the boys. After we put the little one to bed, I cut his hair. After it was over he said thank you and hugged me. Great. A hug. Thanks. He showered and got dressed and said goodbye to eldest son. He is supposed to have the kids until tomorrow but he has a course he has to go on tomorrow. So when leaving I asked him if he is going to take the kids for the evening since he officially goes back to work wed. He said yes but was planning on coming over to hang out rather than take them. Great opportunity to set a boundary. But no. My weak little self took it as he gave it to me. This is what my MC and I have been working on for so long! Is saying NO! Take the kids and do your thing, drop them off later in the evening. But my stupid fear overrides absolutely everything! I was in the doorway when he was leaving and as he brushed by me he went in for a cheap grab. I pretended not to feel it. But seriously? What on earth is going through your mind? You want me? You don't want me? What? And why was he so grumpy? Did the session go good or bad? I think if it went bad then he obviously wouldn't have still asked for the haircut, and gave me a hug, and "grabbed" me, and said he wanted to come hang out here tomorrow night. But if it went good, then why is he so grumpy? I know when he is sad and frustrated with himself, he takes it out in anger and grumpiness. So maybe it made him sad to talk about it again, which he probably hadn't talked about in a few weeks. But no mind reading, right Trent? One thing though, he walked in the house grumpy, and left happy. I put a smile on his face, and he told me again tonight that I'm funny lately. Well open your eyes buddy. You are leaving happy, doesn't that mean something? I wish i would have mentioned that when he left. Just how he didn't seem to be grumpy anymore. Kind of throw it in his face for him to realize. I know the MC was going to ask him today if he wants back in the marriage. He told me this morning he was going to ask him, so maybe I'll wait and see what happens over the next week now that someone has gotten him thinking again, before I bring up R.