Ended up doing a ton of work this weekend. And I enjoyed it. Which was good. Small step to get back to working again. An action I took on to show myself that I can work.
Other than that I lived the life of a single guy. 3 loads of laundry 1 soccer game and nice breakfast 1 hockey practice Jogged 5km Washed floors and vacuumed. Mom has called me and she and her friend are setting me up on some date with some woman who likes zombie movies.... Hmmm.... Should be a good ice breaker. "Hi I am cutterbug. My mom says you like zombie movies." ..... or the worst pick up line ever. Tonight going to see a live band with some friends Low key and home early. Tomorrow a nice day with my nephew. I miss seeing him since all this happened. So it will be a good catch up day.
I am in a good mood. I hope you are as well. Take care in your stitch.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!
Had a great night. Good live band. Stayed out a little late. Was the DD. So feel good today. Bumped into some old friends last night and caught up on life. A good night.
2 of my friends broke the no talking about WAS to me.
1 told me how was called his wife last week and the whole conversation was around if they had gone to the local town festival and oh did you see cutter. Oh who was he there with. Oh did you get their name. Where they together? As my friends wife did not know too much about my friend she just said. Yep he was with a woman and sorry did not catch the name.
2nd one was with a good friend who is truelly stuck in the middle. WAS called her for the first time this week in 5 weeks and just went at her how I am being so childish with not talking , calling or emailing. And she said she said some vile stuff towards me over it all. Our good friend just told her that I was out and about living life and gave little details.
While that conversation was going on. I said how sorry I was that she was stuck in the middle and when she said she was trying so hard not to hate my WAS over this I just replied that she is justifying her actions right now. And there is a ton of anger because I did not follow her script. But that she should work herself through these feelings and down the road when the WAS becomes herself again that she should be there for her as girlfriends will be for life. I think this is what puppy dog calls keeping the road paved and smooth. But that road is for friendship.
Oh these parallel paths.
Anyways.
Today I am going to continue the great world of being a single guy and change the bedding and then meet up with my nephew and enjoy some quality time.
Cutter... you may not always feel like it, but you truly are an inspiration. I know there are "zig zags" and setbacks in GALing, have had plenty of my own. But, you seem to have stayed pretty consistent and making lots of progress. I am finding that having read your thread has given me some strength for today and to keep my eyes on the goal. I can do this! Thanks also for your encouragement on my thread!
Are you still waking around 4? I did that for awhile too... I didn't realize how common that was. Now, I will fall asleep at a reasonable time, but usually wake around 1 or 2 and have trouble getting back to sleep. Also frustrated that I can't sleep in anymore on weekends, no matter how rough the sleep was... argh! Anyway, it helps a bit to know we are not alone doesn't it?
RDW thanks for the kind words... No I switched to the 2am one now... Which is better as I am asleep again when 4am rolls around.
Undrdg. Yes I am hanging in very well. I am still coming to grips with myself on being single. I am starting to really enjoy it. Its weird. I still talk to herside of the family. Do stuff with them. Do stuff with our friends. But I just have removed her. And it really does not bother me at all right now. And I do not know what to do with that thought. We have no kids. So I only need to contact her one more time to finish off the seperation papers and thats it. If I want that.
I know now that if she came back and said take me back I would say NO. Mind you this has not happened so take it with a gram of salt. I have worked on what I want in life. I am heading down that path. Adjusting as needed and keeping open eyes and ears to learn. Its all still very confusing watching what is happening to myself. I do know I like where I am going. I will continue to head down this parellel path.
I really do thank detachment and the advice from this site, which has helped me to this place at this time.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!
i am not there at all. I am working on being single. Got my new place everything. But if she told me she wanted me back i would be back so fast i would kick myself.
ON the one hand i feel sad and lonely that my love has left because of my actions.
On the other hand, I want her to know what it is that i brought to the table. I want her to know that i provided a level of security that was stable. I want her to know that i am the best there is out there and the next person she gets with will not even hold a candle to the kind of man i am.
Undrdg. Your stronger than you think. I hope you would not do that. For if you did? What have you learned ? You need to use this time you have now to improve. That way if it does happen. It will be a better relationship that you choose with boundaries. Do you want to be here again ?
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!
no i do not want to be here again. but i fear that the reason my W is leaving is more selfish that i originally thought.
Unless we're talking about abusive relationships, walk-away spouses almost always have selfish reasons.
They rewrite history to make you the bad guy and conveniently forget all of the great things you had together.
Me: 44, Wife: 39 M: 17 years T: 20 years Bomb on 08/25/09 1/13/10: MC started 1/28/10, 2/8/10: More bombs 8/28/10: Wife moved out No talk of D, no movement
