Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

Mishka I'm OK. I'm just having an emotional day and I can't really figure out why. Perhaps it was thinking I missed an opportunity last night when W called. The DB counselor says every conversation is an opportunity to rebuild and I may have missed one because she didn't sound like her sure self. She sounded vulnerable for once. I could have explored what was wrong.

Of course, doing that has gotten me nowhere either.

Maybe it's the two weeks until the girls are over for the weekend -- although I'll have them both Wednesdays.

Perhaps I'm already freaking out about the weekend. I head into this one with no plans and I feel like a GAL failure if I don't do something.

Perhaps part of it is just having to sit around so much because of the hernia surgery. When bad thoughts hit me before I'd hit the gym.

I have my marriage rebuilders class tomorrow. That will help. Wednesday I have the kids. Thursday maybe I'll just rest.

I don't know. Maybe it's a plateau. When you start working out, you make incredible gains for a while and then you plateau for a while before your next big breakthrough.

W just called. Back to her confident self. Her late night is Wednesday, which is the day I have them anyway. Short. To the point.