H that is. he arrived this evening and he is determined to be miserable, morose and obviously is digging himself an absolute pity party, he cooked a nice dinner and then said that even I didnt need him anymore.
i explained that needing him was wrong and was part of all the things that hadnt worked for us! I ended up in tears telling him how I realised all the things that had been wrong, I dont need him but I do want him, he said right we are getting somewhere then proceeded to get even more miserable and morose. I just cant win tonight so I have retreated to my bedroom, to try and relax, even though I am seriously worried about him being so wound up downstairs alone! Nothing I can do can fix or help this man so there is no point even offering to!
Tomorrow I suspect hes gonna do the I havent got a job and we cant pay the bills and the house is gonna have to be sold statement. Well we wouldnt be in such a mess if he hadnt gone awal looking for the land of green and plenty instead of talking to me!
Im so tired after only getting four hours sleep and having my interview and tests today, Im just not sure I can cope with him a moment longer. Gonna have to stop for a minute as hes hit the roof the internet isnt working on his pc, so he needs to reboot something will add more later!
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
