So glad you are doing well! Gory movies - glad my S isn't into those yet, though I am sure it won't be long.
Even in the summer I was dreading the thought of Christmas. It is my favorite time of year and I just didn't see how it could remain so this year but now I am in a much better place and I know the kids and I WILL enjoy it, and H can tag along if he wants. At this point I do not expect him to join in the activities with my extended family (he has managed to avoid them for months now) but that is his problem, though I can say it will probably make me sad and the kids wonder. Whatever. Hopefully by then I will be in an even better place and not bothered as much.
I am working hard not be "stuck" myself, as I have felt that at times the past couple of weeks. You are right, expectations can do that. Been making steps on some of my personal goals, so happy there.