It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

So I text W, not knowing what to do. She calls and I learn that she and DDs are on the verge of being kicked out of the apt. And the power/gas was shut off today.

Granted, I helped create the debt that led to this. But she had the resources to pay this stuff in the mean time. The debt would have remained but she screwed up, went out on the weekends, spent lots of money on Halloween costumes, new clothes, etc for her new life w/out me.

I know she feels I'm the one who created this but she still mismanaged money while I was gone. She already stretched the resources she has to the maximum. The best she can get is money from the Catholic charities, if there is any available.

And, I care! About her, about the girls, all of it! And I can barely help myself! I'm supposed to do something. I can't and the solutions that are available (going w/ me to parents as a family, pawning MY stuff to pay rent and staying there) won't work because she's done w/ the M.

I own what I did and how I helped create this, but I don't know if there's a solution that I can help with.

I just can't help thinking... if only she was willing to work on things. Well, she's not. I guess that's all there is to it.

Fix me, help where and when I can.