Mishka and Awest, those are excellent suggestions. So far the girls are adjusting to the lifestyle changes. Unfortunately, they'll keep coming.

I remember my own childhoood. If it wasn't for my grandmother, who had a huge backyard swimming pool and a big enough house for all of us, we would have gone from a three story, two-car garage, American Dream kind of house to a two-bedroom apartment because my mom left with few job skills and a bad back.

Because of my grandmother, we ended up living really comfortably. I can't complain about what we had. I don't know if that's going to be the case for the girls.

D just rips everything apart. Creates tug-of-wars. Holidays are always tense. My parents had to divorce. There was so much anger and yelling and so little love. I wish they were still alive so I could talk to them about it.

As for myself, forgiveness isn't in my heart right now. I'm heading to Barnes & Noble tonight to find a couple of books. If I can't come out of this process a better person then I failed God -- again.


Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11
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