Thanks for the input. And, yes, I think you are right. So, I will spend some time today working through why I am feeling this way. Initially, I think it is the thought that we will not be together another set of holidays after this one. Don't know that that's as much a thought as a fact.
So, the thought may be I cannot be happy if we are not together as a family during the holidays. I will miss that terribly, but know I CAN be happy if I were in another situation. I would still see my kids, just not her. Another tough part is that her family has really become mine - I am close to mine, but haven't spent holidays with them in a long time. So, I will miss that as well.
