Someone posted here that they get upset when people come to the “Piecing Our Marriage Back Together Again” thread too soon in their journey. I think I am one of those people that came here too soon. I have been detaching more and more. Doing my own thing. Still doing small things for wife to show I still do care but expecting NOTHING in return, NO R talk. Amazing things have happened even though they are small things like these would NOT have happened a year ago. One example… Wife always gets son ice cream at night…last night after she gave son his ice cream son and I started watching a movie. About half way through the movie w comes in and asks ME if I wanted some Ice cream and apple crisp that she made. I said ya sure... she went into the kitchen and not only got me the ice cream she warmed up the apple crisp in the microwave. AND she was not getting any for herself... she did this just for me. another part of my detaching was that she was talking about this deep fryer she had seen in the store (ours is about 25 years old) well I had just sold some firewood so I gave her the money for the deep fryer and said her go buy it and walked away.. NOT going for the kiss that I would usually go for. So NO EXPECTATIONS…… Well my margarita needs a refill so I will talk to ya all later
Doc.
I couldn't take it any longer Lord I was crazed And when the feeling came upon me Like a tidal wave I started swearing to my god and on my mother's grave That I would love you to the end of time I swore that I would love you to the end of time! So now I'm praying for the end of time To hurry up and arrive 'Cause if I gotta spend another minute with you I don't think that I can really survive I'll never break my promise or forget my vow But God only knows what I can do right now I'm praying for the end of time That’s all I can do……………………………………………
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Journaling….(warning I have drank about a ½ bottle of “Gnarly Head old vine zin”)
Ok a little history is in order. Two years ago right after the bomb was dropped we as a family went to Yosemite national park for our anniversary. That was the time that like a fool I climbed ½ ways up half dome to prove I could what lead to me because of my leg get a double hernia. ANYWAY we were eating dinner at a local restaurant and me the beer drinker decided to leave my comfort zone and ordered wine. I ordered a white zin. W was quick to point out to me that a real win condosure drinks RED win and proceeded to order a red wine. So now fast forward to tonight. One of my wood customers was so impressed with my service that he gave me a bottle of red wine. Tonight I made pizza for dinner and told wife I was going to open my bottle of wine. Well I drank about half the bottle while eating the Pizza and asked W if she was going to have any. She said…. NOW GET THIS… “I am having a rum and coke. I really don’t like red wine”... I said “I thought you said real wine drinkers like red wine” she said “well I heard that wine condosure drink red wine.” Funny thing is that I like this wine…….. Ok as for everything else………Things are going okay... I mean things seem to go really well during the day but every night when she goes to “her room” I feel like things are starting all over again. We have not had any R discussions and she has been real nice to me. I have done things for her without any expectations and one thing that I did change was in the past any money I made from wood sales I would give it to her and then ask for money when I needed it. Now I have kept the money and occasionally give her a few dollars to go get something for her So that’s it for now…I can tell ya one thing... I am going to sleep well tonight……
Oh ya one last thing... I have been looking at GPS systems for my Jeep. Even though money is getting low and NORMALY I would give all my money to wife to use as she see’s fit. I am going to get one for me. It will help me on my wood deliveries AND... In case I do lose my house and am left to sleep in my car…………at least I will know where I am at………….
Bye Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
THANKS for checking up on me. (I wish some of you MEN here lived close so we could go out for a beer) Had a busy day today but (at the risk of "rattling Saffie's and OT's cage) I will try to give ya an update tomorrow. But things are okay. NOT where I would like them to be but okay...
Night Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
