It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

I'm getting it. The M wasn't the problem. We were.

We weren't us. We were the unit, not individuals. The M only exists when we're okay with ourselves.

There were problems, but they couldn't be solved as a unit because the unit isn't a person. We weren't looking at who WE were.

We can blame each other forever, but we weren't thinking as individuals. And now she is and that scares me. She broke out, finally. I have to, too. That's what's keeping me back.

If we could figure this out and still be together, then we would be great.

How do I communicate to her that the R isn't the co-dependence. By not being the person she's seen me as for so long. I can't be the unit anymore.

That doesn't guarantee anything, though. It's not magic.

It may be too late. I had to make a choice that would lock me into a place far from my family for a while. It's the best choice I could make, though. Move forward or drown.