Haven't seen you around much lately! I am doing okay. I have had a rough couple of weeks up and down and not sure why really. I have seen a lot of positives from H but for some reason it isn't making me feel better - maybe because I know I can't expect anything soon. Or maybe I am afraid the other shoe will drop. Or maybe I am just not detached enough at this point and my expectations need to be reset at zero. I am cautiously optimistic that he will come out of the fog sometime, though. We shall see.
BUT yesterday and today I am better.
I will look up the snowflake stuff. I am trying to think of new traditions to create with the kids. They are very much tied to tradition so that may be good. The thing is, last Christmas was still three months pre-bomb but my H had detached so much already. He was very disengaged with all we were doing. He honestly now seems more invested and interacts more with the kids than he did then. That is one area that has improved so much for which I am grateful for their sakes. It is still all on his terms and I am trying to leave it that way and not push anything at all. The kids don't expect anything from him it seems like.
So for this Christmas - new tradition or two, maybe suspend some of the old for now, and trying to keep my expectations for H as close to zero as I possibly can.
