I had a kind of realization that I'm going to have to turn into a WAS. That's the only way through it. Let go, move on and through it to a better life.
Then what? Two WASs. That's why I held onto the pain for so long. If I let go of the M then it goes away. Doesn't it? Maybe, maybe not.
Yes, strange as it sounds, that's how it begins. You stop pursuing, you start moving in your own direction, detachment. It screws up the current dynamic, you're expected to pursue and resist this divorce, you change directions, move toward it and it screws up the logic at their end.
When you agree with them, agree with their feelings, in fact adopt their feelings as your own, they have nothing left to fight you on, you were against the divorce, now you're for it, they can't fight you if you're agreeing with them.
