Sad to say, but this is getting easier...maybe I am ready to move on?
H dropped off rings I gave back to him. So now I have them back, but don't even feel like putting them on. Seems harder when I wear them because its a constant reminder of something that isn't there anymore. I am thinking about starting to box up all of his stuff, so I don't need to see it anymore. Out of sight out of mind, right? Wish it was that easy. I still have one of our wedding pix up in living room and one by my desk. If anything I will use them to think of the positives of our marriage, so if anything, we can always be friends.
Yesterday was very first day of no text, no talk, no communication of any kind in a long time. I almost tried to find a reason to text him last night, but held back.
Saturday I had to text him about phone bill. I asked a few questions, then said, sorry and I will now stop bothering him. He said..it was ok. When we have talked or texted, he seems more sincere since "the talk". He's so confusing..which must mean hes even more confused himself.
For the meantime..I am just focusing on myself and my business. I am going to try some morning meditation to keep me focused and positive...
Anyhow..guess this is just a place to journal for me.
