Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts sanderika, Oz, Rabbit and Dia. I appreciate Gucci's words because they have given me plenty to think about.
I have to clarify 2 things....We have been separated 2 years and it was a few months after H left that I discovered the A. I did say I was jealous of H spending time with ow. I didn't say anything else about her. I agree with Gucci, H is as bad as ow. The only difference is that H has had points in the emotional love bank due to all the years prior to the A. OW is an employee who started working for us when I was sick.
These posts also came at a time when I am feeling emotionally overwhelmed. I seem to go ok with the DB and then a hit a snag and I let my hard work go down the drain. That happened tonight when I talked to H. He said he sensed that we were getting closer and he had to tell me that a reconciliation wasn't going to happen ever, that he wanted to be friends but he would never get back with me. It just wouldn't work. He said he would be living with OW if it wasn't for the kids. He said I needed to move on and get a new person in my life.
He finished by saying he was happy with the way our friendship had progressed but there was no use thinking of anything further cos it wasn't going to happen. H is a black and white person. he would find it hard to tell people he made a mistake in leaving. I believe him when he says he's not coming back.
I am wasting my life here. Bottom line is that H wasn't true in good times and in bad but I do love him. I am in utter confusion!!
