For those with a WAS...How do you cope?

[courts0818]

I'm heading to bed in a minute, just venting yet again...So, we saw him for a grand total of 2.5 hours this weekend. Isn't that just so nice of him? How can someone be so selfish?

This has all been about him and his unhappiness. Well guess what?He's making me unhappy, he disgusts me and makes me want to vomit. Do I even want to be with him? I feel like we no longer have anything in common.

He drinks too much - I outgrew that behavior a long time ago (I grew up, he didn't). He now smokes - it grosses me out. He gambles way too much - I think it's a waste of time and money. I look forward to going to church and serving at church - he hasn't been to church in over a year. In my work, I like to help others and make a difference - he's focused on the money. When we were together and doing stuff, I was happy going out to dinner with friends and talking - that wasn't good enough for him, he wanted to do more - go to the bars after dinner or whatever else. I love taking our DD to kid places (zoo, park, movies) - he doesn't bc that's not fun enough for him. I love being a mom and spending together as a family - it's obvious H doesn't value family time.

We've turned into 2 totally different people. I guess marriage and life with me became too boring for him. I can still be a little wild and fun, but he's so crazy and delustional if he thinks marriage and adult life is all about carefee paryting and relaxation.

Ohhhhhh...enough for tonight....