D1978. If the only road was friendship not companionship would you travel it? I can understand him cutting you off at every turn. You say you have forgiven yourself. That is a good step. Do you know if he has forgiven himself? Do you know if he kept any roads paved for you? Via friends or family? Also look at the timing. There is a ton of thoughts being revisited one year later. I know that next year in July - October time frame I am going to have a hard time. But I also know that I will have built my personal strength up that if I have to deal with my WAS that I will be strong enought to get through it if that is what I want.
I also know that to rebuild trust will take a very long time. As it would be a brand new relationship. How do relationships truely start? Friendship! Offer the gift of unconditional love and expect nothing in-return. For this may be what your husband offers. Nothing. Some hurts cannot ever be healed. Do you love him enought to let him go? I am sorry if I hurt you in any of my words. It was not my intent. But I do understand that right now you are again at the bottom of a mountain and wish to climb to the peak. I feel the sting of an affair in my failed marriage. I will freely explain to you how I feel. Ask any questions and I will answer them truefully. As I know we are all just hurt people who made mistakes.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!
