K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

Ya, I know. I suppose I had that one coming. Just trying to read stuff and continue to learn.

I guess I got so caught up in thinking if I pray enough that God will just change her mind at some point and all will be good. Was ridiculous of me. He will speak to her, but it is up to her as to whether or not she will accept anything he says to her.

I will still pray none the less and ask for Gods will be done. I have my kids again this week.

I am mentally working very hard to try and eliminate controlling and manipulative thoughts from my mind in anything I do.

Learning and actions are such a slow process for me in this whole relationship world. I frusturate myself that I don't apply learned knowledge faster and better.

Kevin