Another waw/mlc and I need support

[cyclone]

Just when I think I'm starting to detach fromthe emotional part of this all, I have a down day. Nothing in particular to trigger it but it was a tough day today.

W took the kids trick-or-treating last night. I stayed back to hand out candy. There were some good moments of us together with the kids. She also brought up her now standard topic of conversation - that I need to move out. This time the Pproach she took was to say that she is going to keep the room she is renting and spend sometimes there and sometimes in the house. I'm trying to walk the fine line between being a doormat and pressuring her. I just told her that it was ok to have a place to go to when she felt that she needed to be away. She then said she was hoping that I would find a place too so that I could go someplace when she is feeling that I need to be away. I told her I wasn't going to talk about that subject anymore.

Today was S9's baseball game. I was surprised That she showed up in the second inning of the game but not so surprised when she left after the third inning. She did stop by to tell me she was leaving because she got to see what she came for; S9 pitched the third inning.

I was having a tough time before this and that didn't help. Tonight will probably be another night with her not coming home. I've given her the master bedroom and it does make me a bit angry at myself because now she isn't even using it but I feel that at this time I should show her that she can trust that I won't violate her space by sleeping in the bed when she is not her.

Just getting this all out to help with the feelings. I am focusing on the kids tonight and we have had a fun day. Tomorrow is a new day. It is still hard to not think that I wish she would just be able to go through this quickly.