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[iwantittowork]

I have to post for a bit, been a bit of an all over day..

First the bad points..

I found I was getting really anxious just knowing I'd see STBXW when picking up d8 this AM on the way there. I tried to work through that as best I could, knowing I was kind of projecting on my way there, but it is what it is. I had to pickup d8 at Coffee shop, as STBXW decided to meet a friend there and have me pick up d8. That was odd, almost like she didn't want me coming by the house, but whatever.

Last week, STBXW didn't bother to check or pack properly for d8, and almost all the clothes in her bag were dirty. I washed them so she had clean clothes to get dressed in for school so I could drop them off, but I was shocked at that, but let it slide. This week, it's the same clothes that I packed back, and sent back, she never bothered to check for clean ones or if she had proper clothes to wear. I need to speak with STBXW about this.

Next, d8 tells me today that SS17 is the one that walked her around for trick or treat, STBXW stayed at home to 'pass out candy' I know there's nothing I can do about this, but that really ticked me off, d8's first holiday without dad around, and she sends her older brother around because she doesn't want to leave the house???? I need to probably let that go, but I don't understand that at all.

Now at least to something good today.

I must say, my d8 I am so proud of, it's getting me emotional tonight. This week, STBXW and her carved a pumpkin and roasted the seeds, d8 took a sandwich bag, and wrote 'dad' on it, and put a bunch of them in there. Then, she took another sandwich bag and wrote 'dad' on that one too, then picked through her candy she got trick or treating, and took every one of her Reese's peanut butter cups, and put them in that bag for me, as she knows they are my favorite candy. I am just so darned proud of her, she is such a good person..