Am I at this stage?

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Thanks guys. Its just getting so hard. I know I need a little patience. And I know I should be happy with all the positive steps we're making. But it just feels like we're not going anywhere. I feel empty. I feel like even though he is flirting, and complimenting, and calling, and wanting to spend time together, it doesn't mean anything. I truly believe that! I feel like if things go the way they are going he will never come home. Why? He has a perfectly fine life right now. I dunno. So frustrated. And so frustrated with keeping my mouth shut. I am having such a hard time not bringing things up. And its only been a week since our last talk. But still, you would think something would have come out of it. And I guess a little did. Everyday is a new positive step compared to two weeks ago. But I just thought it would happen quicker. UGh! I just want to scream! But thanks for the reinforcement. Much appreciated.

I don't feel like I made any boundaries, just because he didn't actually ask me to sleep in the bed. I didn't actually have to say anything other than just go upstairs. That's what I meant about the boundary thing. If he had asked then maybe. But until then I don't feel like any boundaries where made. But I also have a feeling there will be no more asking.