OK Gucci,

You got me.....I am scared. Cas has admitted that fear is standing in her way too.

I know exactly what you are saying to be true.

I wanted to acknowledge your comments. I need to think on this a bit. I think you hit me hard with your take on the sitch. If you don't mind keeping your eye on Cas and me here on her thread, I think we would both be accepting of your point of view.

Gucci, I will post more here after I sort out my thoughts. Cas won't mind I am sure as she and I are in the same boat.

Oz, we have seen progress in our sitches and that is why we are still here. I don't want to D my H, I don't think Cas wants one either. I don't really want to be a part of a relationship with the way things are either. As long as I have seen changes and progress in our friendship I feel that it has been important to stay around as well.

I am fence sitting as well I think. I can't decide how to proceed. One minute I am ready to proceed with my D on Dec. 4th and the next minute I have very cold feet. I am at best undecided.

H seems to come around and throw me a bone at just the right time. I understand what I just said, Gucci.

Gucci and Oz help us out here.....please!

Sanderika


ME48/H48MLC
T 33y
M 28y
S16
OW 8/7/05
Bomb 8/16/05
Sep 9/05
H f'd D 10/3/08
D pp'd 1/20/09,7/24/09,12/4/09
D dismissed 2/5/10
H served me D papers again 9/4/10
D dismissed 9/26/11