Living the emotional rollercoaster this past month. The contact with the GF got better and she even led me to believe things might be changed for the better. She showed me change and even acknowledged the meth use but assured she had quit. I have been very leary about the truth in this even though she seemed to be holding to her word.
My Dad finally passed on this month with us at home with him. This was very emotionally draining but there was a connection with Dad and I after so much time being the blacksheep. I was able to care for him when it became to difficult for others the last few days. I miss him!
The GF wasn't as available to me during this time as I would have hoped which made me become skeptical about her sincerity. I believe love is in her heart as is mine but the drug is pulling harder. I did find out 5 days ago or so that she's still using. No contact since thursday.
As the title of this thread says, a line and a boundary had to be drawn. I am saddended by this but I wont be with someone using. She needs help and I am beginning to believe the only way this may happen is if she gets arrested. Hate to say it but I hope it happens.
On a happier note, my youngest passed his drivers test on friday. Good for him, he got a 98%!
Adding to the stress of October my landlord needed to sell the house i'm in and the buyers wanted me to stay till spring. Well they changed there mind while I was out of town and when I got back my Dad needed to be cared for. Needless to say this put added pressure to everything. I am moved out for the most part only needing one more trip and a few hours. I haven't been able to find a place as of yet so I stay with Mom or friends.
feelings throughout the day it is up and down!!
Keeping my hope and faith...
cire
Me 48 X's vary S 27 S 18 Back with high school sweety after 30 years..
