Going to stay at parents. It feels like a desperate act but I need support right now. Called W to tell her. I was to-the-point and I'm sure she could hear the pain in my voice. It was hard to talk to her even for that brief moment. It didn't even occur to me to act cheerful.
I feel like my life has been stolen. And I just can't get over it. I need outside help. My parents may never understand but at least they love me.
After I tried to kill myself (badly) they sent me to a short-term psych ward. That was the best I've felt the whole time since the bomb. Therapy every day. Someone cared and talked to me and met new people. People who had lives as bad or worse than mine and who understood what I was going through. Apart from this site, I don't feel anyone understands.
~Mark
Me: 38 W: 34 Together: 9yrs 1st M: may '03 1st D: april '08 1st bomb: june '08 remarried: oct '08 2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)
