I have to confess something: if I would let myself go, I would literaly FORGET the whole thing. I could treat it as a parenthesis. Or at least I think I could. The problem is, I dont allow myself to forget and forgive. I make sure I am always alert and sometimes even, I put myself in the position of the victim and enjoy the drama. I know I should not trust him and I dont, but often, he does look like the person I fell in love with. I MAKE SURE I am guarded constantly reminding myself, last time I was completely naive and trusting and "look where it got you stupid!!!"... I feel I am not allowed to even consider trusting him. K
