I said I wouldn't make further comments about the trip, so let's consider this me correcting some errors made by RobX. The trip is being paid for our of our money, not mine. Wife is fine with us staying in same room, but I am not. She has clealry stated to me that I should not read anything into the trip.
As for her wanting someone exciting and better, of ocurse she does. And of course, I want to be that person. I'm just simply not there yet. And I know I give up after 3-4 hours, days or whatever.
Today, for the first time ever, son and I worked out together. It helps with 2 of my goals: work on me and develop better relationship with my kids. It was great while we were doing it, but as soon as it was over, I was right back to feeling like crap.
I know you "pros" are fed up with me and you have the right to be. Heck, I am fed up with me too.
I have no idea how I am going to find the strength within myself to be consistent in my actions to make my life something I am happy with. I have gone to a counselor, gone to church, found a divorce support group, and so far none of it has made a difference.
