Thinking of going to stay with my parents. My aunt can get me into a job training program in wyoming. I'll be 2 hrs away from DDs and W. But maybe that will be good for the time being and motivate me to get back as soon as I can. I can get counseling and a lot of other things that I think I need if I'm going to survive.

I get what you're saying, blue. I have a tendency to wall myself in. Not healthy at all. I look in the mirror and I don't even look healthy. I don't want to lose my W but I'm losing myself. Time for some tough love for myself.

~Mark

Me: 38
W: 34
Together: 9yrs
1st M: may '03
1st D: april '08
1st bomb: june '08
remarried: oct '08
2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)