How are you, today? Me, kinda lonely. Usually I do alone very good. Better and better. Today, not so much. So, I think I'll go upstairs, resume painting and change this "I'm lonely" thought to something better. Like "No, I'm not." Have a good day, buddy.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
How are you, today? Me, kinda lonely. Usually I do alone very good. Better and better. Today, not so much. So, I think I'll go upstairs, resume painting and change this "I'm lonely" thought to something better. Like "No, I'm not." Have a good day, buddy.
I'm kinda limping along. Feeling a little sorry for myself, and I think I'm catching a cold. Feel weak. Push those fluids!
Weird place. I waffle back and forth on the emotions with "my M is done." Not depressed, mind you, just goes from complete detachment (I really don't care) to low grade sadness. Haven't fallen off the wagon. Just being honest about what I feel.
May not be doing much physical today unless I start feeling better.
I am going to make it a point to be nicer around my W despite my failure to have any desire to interact with her.
It is definitely a very tough mix of emotions. I have my good days and my bad days....and then some really bad days (usually the day I drop my son off and early week when I don't have him)
Me 44/W 32 S1 M8 Bomb 9/25/09 Separate houses (about 1 hour apart)
How are you, today? Me, kinda lonely. Usually I do alone very good. Better and better. Today, not so much. So, I think I'll go upstairs, resume painting and change this "I'm lonely" thought to something better. Like "No, I'm not." Have a good day, buddy.
I'm kinda limping along. Feeling a little sorry for myself, and I think I'm catching a cold. Feel weak. Push those fluids!
Weird place. I waffle back and forth on the emotions with "my M is done." Not depressed, mind you, just goes from complete detachment (I really don't care) to low grade sadness. Haven't fallen off the wagon. Just being honest about what I feel.
May not be doing much physical today unless I start feeling better.
I am going to make it a point to be nicer around my W despite my failure to have any desire to interact with her.
Glad I'm not alone. Feeling several different emotions bubbling up today. Spent way to much time around W yesterday. Didn't want to but I sucked it up for the kids.
_________________________ Me-41 W-39 M-15 yrs T-17 yrs D-12 S-9 S-8 B 5/08 S 1/09
Weird place. I waffle back and forth on the emotions with "my M is done." Not depressed, mind you, just goes from complete detachment (I really don't care) to low grade sadness. Haven't fallen off the wagon. Just being honest about what I feel.
I hear ya. But don't forget that detachment is letting go of (your control over) the outcome. Not "I really don't care", or as someone else (SP?) keeps phrasing it: "Don't give a sh!tness."
Originally Posted By: givingitmyall
May not be doing much physical today unless I start feeling better.
Veg out. What the hell.
Me, the painting and changing my thoughts have helped my funk, today. That and the i-pod and Sound-Dock cranking!
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
Weird place. I waffle back and forth on the emotions with "my M is done." Not depressed, mind you, just goes from complete detachment (I really don't care) to low grade sadness. Haven't fallen off the wagon. Just being honest about what I feel.
I hear ya. But don't forget that detachment is letting go of (your control over) the outcome. Not "I really don't care", or as someone else (SP?) keeps phrasing it: "Don't give a sh!tness."
Originally Posted By: givingitmyall
May not be doing much physical today unless I start feeling better.
Veg out. What the hell.
Me, the painting and changing my thoughts have helped my funk, today. That and the i-pod and Sound-Dock cranking!
Understood. I do believe I am completely detached and have dropped the rope. That said, I don't think either of those means I should expect not to have sadness or a feeling of loss.
I realize I have nor control over the outcome. No doubt.
It seems we both need to focus on the realization that we can, and will, find the happiness we are now mourning with some one else.
Find happiness just being you.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
