Yes, I'm feeling much more confident in my own skin. Last night, I was pretty tired due to the late night Friday and lack of sleep, etc., but once I showered late, I got a 2nd wind.
GF sent a text, just saying "hi." I replied back asking about her and asked if she wanted to do anything. She didn't reply, so I just went out to the local dive bar, had a few beers, threw a game of darts (I'm terrible still) and came back home.
I just wanted to get out and do something, so I did. It was cool and I didn't beg GF to come w/me or even tell her I was going. I figured she would have let me know if she wanted to come and didn't. It was ok, b/c going out was about me, not about her.
It is easier to understand, but I'm by no means a finished product. I have some material that I've read that I'm going to keep reading over and over again until it becomes 2nd nature for me. I understand what I've done and what I need to do to be more comfortable in my own skin, but I'm still in need of making these changes permanent.
So, that's what I'm reading on a regular basis. I teach Introduction to Psychology, so I know the brain can re-wire itself w/practice, so I'll be re-reading, absorbing and practicing until my new behaviors and confidence completely replace the old, bad habits.
Life is fun, and I'm looking forward to continuing to enjoy it.
